I’d been eagerly trying –
begging, pushing hard and crying
to implant, to find a meaning in life.
I wanted someone to share –
giving what I could never have, a shelter
to break the curse of feeling as unwanted in life.
I try to forget the sadness –
living through all the madness
to see my fate that I am just condemned in life.
I’m not hiding I’m unwell –
wanting no help to share my hell
to infect more with that I am getting in life.
I will be soon ended –
being a mistake for I pretended
to try to find any other reason than to die in life.