It’s neither my pleasure, nor my style,
but I’ve been drinking for a while.
We already know it why:
some nights are just too heavy being dry.
I had been suffering and crying
even before alcoholic supplying,
but since I have it
I say: freck it.
I’m not looking for acceptance;
I hate myself even in this stance,
but surely I am passing time,
and I find words for my rhyme.
My dear Lord, Dionysus,
is tottaly not like Jesus;
he lets me do my own sacrifice,
and eases me directly by the price.
How should I thank him more
than just live and drink a bit more?
Life is hard even as a drunkard,
but it’s the life of a pocket bard.
Benyamin Bensalah
05.04.2021
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I knew I had a problem with it for years before finally giving it up.. but how i eat far too many sweet things.. Don’t know why its so tough for us simply to ‘be’ with things but maybe this is what being human is.
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My whole life is a complex coping mechanism, I will survive and overcome it like everything else. Nothing does matter. ❤
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I am not a mechanism.. an assembly of different sections I am a soul and the wounds of the soul take a long long time..look that poem by D H Lawrence up its a great poem about the human complexities of life.
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I’m always pleased with poetry recommendations. I liked it: however, I don’t share the philosophy. I beleive in no soul. The brain and the whole universe is just a system of mechanism – we are no more than preprogrammed surviving cells with some schemata of experience in order to survive. Being burnt by fire makes us to avoid it; being scorched by the world.. makes us to fear every corner of it.
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Well I dint agree buf that is fine yoy just have ymto read encounters frim.people whi die and return..but a lot of people such in the mechanical model believe that.
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And you’ve yet to turn your will over and receive the priceless gift of sobriety..mine came with encounters with angels 💙🦋🙏
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And yes, complex coping mechanism is so apt.. great expression!
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Have you listened to “Chocolate Jesus” by Tom Waits? Your poem reminds me of that a little.
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Woow. Not till now, thanks for the blues. :3 ❤
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What’s a pocket bard?
I have an addictive personality too. I use to use alcohol as a crutch. Then sex. Then gambling. Now I’m trying to move it to both spirituality and exercise. Not quite the same as the other addictions, but healthier addictions. Old age has taught me a few things I guess. That and I killed my liver.
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I’m sorry to hear, but I’m happy you can manage it in your older age. I’m not planning to live that tho. ❤
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