How do I cope with myself being me?
When I have a thought,
I tell myself do not think.
When I notice something,
I tell myself I did not.
When the past hurts me,
I tell myself time does not exist.
When realities overwhelm me,
I tell myself nothing is real.
How do I cope?
When I am forced to be awake,
I make up little things to think about.
When my eyes are forced to be open,
I blindfold myself and all in the world.
When memories burn me inside,
I erase every minutes past behind me.
When I grow crazy of all the absurdities,
I know that nothing is real.
How do I keep being me?
I do not think that such thing exists.
I do not see anything at all.
I do not feel at all.
I do not exist.
Benyamin Bensalah
20.03.2023